Here comes the baby blues .....

Having a baby means.........you have to be ready for something brand new bad dreams.

Who said that everything will be fine, once the baby arrives, then you 'll be a happy mom.....
Who said that anyway.........

I GOT THE BABY BLUES.........

I feel terrible when I hear she cries..... a lot......almost all night, I don't know how to breast her,........
I don't know how to hug her, and I don't even know what she wants.........
Whatever I do, she keeps crying and crying, even harder....

Hey baby, I don't know who you are, who ruin all my imagination of being a new mom....

I think having a baby is only seeing her everyday sleeping,
but the reality is when you have a baby you MUST at least have a little knowledge of how to calm her down...,
Not only I have to try recovering my body, and all the heavy spirit to get everything back to normal, what I mean normal is, at least I can walk normal again, no more stomach, and no more boneless every time I try to stand out....

Luckily I have a little knowledge on how to manage the baby blues........here

anyho.....a part from my baby blues syndrome, which finally I can get over it,
one thing that I always remember that my early latch on with dede,
for the first time I hold her in my arms, although I cannot move even a bit, but I can hold her in my arms,
still she finds and finds her milk..........

I only a little bit disappointed cause she was given to me after 30 minutes, not in the mean time after her born,
she should have come to me in just time.........no need to be that tidy.........

I Got Pregnant!!!!!

Finally I got married.........
And the daily life of a marriage has begun.........

When I woke up in the morning, still there is no big change in my life, starting to the bathroom, and getting ready to the office. The difference is only no I have my big man, I used to call him Koko, next in my bed who is still sleeping....but a little bother by shining lamp I used to make up.

Read more..........

Wish the rain goes away from everybody's life.............

Life is not always fair
when you think that you are happy, there is still something which makes you not to be happy
I'm happy now but my friends is not in the good luck, how can I be happy???

Roda kehidupan berputar, sometimes you are up, sometimes you are down..........
When you are in the peak, do not be overwhelmed..........
When you are not in your luck, don't worry......the rain will go away....

Be tough my dear, .........
Perhaps it's not your day, but you will be even stronger ahead...
I cannot make you feel better, only you who can make everything to be the best.........

Hold on friends.......
I will try to give you my shoulder, you can count on me
but what can I do if I cannot make you feel better........
I don't have power, I'm not the one who can turn my hands on and off........
because I'm only me.........

Wish Upon the Stars

And everything comes for a reason
so when you feel cold, stand by me, then I will warm your heart,
when you feel that it's too hot here, I will calm you
when you feel it is so hard to find a way, just remember me,
So when you feel you are alone, don't be cause I'll be there................
and when you need someone beside you, count on me
This is not a promise, but a prove for you my dear.....

Cheers,

Kani nyanyi

Satu satu……..kani cayang Mamah

Dua dua….. kani cayang papah

Tiga tiga cayang amah kung

Hehehehe………si kani udah bisa diajak cerita, ngobrol…serunyaaaaaaaa

New words

Kani,
kenapa kata2 berikutnya "Kupuk......"
enak yah makan kerupuk :)

Adventure with Kani 6 Dec’10

On this kejepit day, Kani and I went to Mangga Dua square……….only two of us hohoho………

It was the first time we went together, only two of us,

Felt so adventurous………

Pertama, kita ke Pancoran dulu de, katanya sih mau lihat2 ada apa yah disana, hmmmmmm ….mau beli angpao, obat amah, dan apa lagi yah………gak tau deh………

Mau naik mikrolet, kok yah penuh terus yah………mana kamu udah berat lagi digendongnya nih,,,,,,

Yah udah, naik bajaj aja deh……..:)

Eh….kok malah nangis pas mau naik bajaj………..takut yah de denger suaranya yang garing bangetttt!!!

Tenang yah de, its ok……..bajaj is no fear……..

Anyway, after shopping in Pancoran, we went forward to Mangga Dua Square to see Moni, mom’s best friend and spent time together like old time………

First time went by taxy,,,,,,kani was so shy, and quiet…..did not want to sit alone, just wanted to be seated with me……

Luckily she was had fun after all in Mangga Dua Square, crowling around the Dolphin Fun land.

Playing with ayunan, balok2, kotak2, dan tiny house……….

Had a little accident when Kani met funky little girl who was very wild and almost scream on her, kasihan kamu de, sampe2 pipinya merah dicakar dia, untung gak kenapa2, …hfhfhfhf……awas aja tuh anak kalo sampe kenapa2 yah……..hahahha J

Terus kita main yang lain yah sama kezia………had lunch with KFC and then went back home.

Felt so tired, kani feel a sleep on the way home, sambil kepalanya terantuk2 di gendongan ……hehehee

Next time, kita jalan2 lagi yah de………..

Cheers

vani